Hope.

It's a very sad moment when you loose all hope for your parents. Today that moment came for me. My parents raised me to listen to peoples story, to give them the benefit of the doubt, not to judge a book by its cover, and that hating takes more energy. But they just love to hate, or so it seems that way anyways, they hate both of my sister in-laws or so it seems that way, they never gave my sister Tiffany a chance, they never really looked at the bigger picture and my dad constantly tried to push my brothers first daughter on to her and didn't give her much of a chance to do so on her own; he was so preoccupied with trying to get her to love my niece so that my niece could be happy he never tried to love Tiffany so that my brother could be happy. While I knew this side of him, I didn't know my mom was just as bad. Today was my cousins baby baptism and most of our family had gathered for it. My mom was complaining about one of my nephews because he's scared of my dad and she blames my sister in law Cynthia and my brother Mando for babying him. -__- he is a baby! and then my mom said "it makes me sick,...we have enough with Natalia we don't need more grandchildren," I felt so sick I wanted to throw up! who was this hating woman? She so often complains that shes not close enough to my brothers three boys and now shes saying she doesnt need them? thats so...so UGLY! Has she really become so bitter?? I really wanted to talk to her and my dad about their ways but when I confronted my mom I told her I wanted to talk to her about something but that if I did I knew we would just get in a huge argument. Her reply was "Then keep it to yourself." This woman felt like a stranger to me, first of all she talked down on her own blood and secondly she didn't care to listen to what I had to say. Today I cried twice, once for my brother who is all alone in Afghanistan and second because I no longer had hope for my parents or my family.


-Marybby</3