Liar Liar

Seriously? parents are such liars! it's ridiculous  how often they lied to us when we were little, and now its like no big, I still feel a bit naive for still believing that we can really do whatever we want to do, but according to my parents you have to have certain qualities to be a sales person, wth! they told me I could be a doctor, lawyer, astronaut, architect whatever I wanted but if I per chance wanted to be a "sales" person It just couldnt be done? BULL shit! I mean I wasn't stupid when I was little, I knew Santa didnt exist, or any of those other halmark holiday characters, but seriously? you were lying to me about my future too? well Eff that! I think I'll go into sales just to shove it in their faces!.... gahh and youd think I was over the teen melo-drama ffffffffuuuuuuuuu -_- on the bright side, I'm going back to school this november :D

Waiting

So this past weekend I went to El Paso to visit my sister and my niece and nephew, I absolutely love them! My niece just started middle school and shes growing too damn fast it kind of scares me I miss her toddler years when she would follow me around in her walker ;) she was too cute and now she's growing into a beautiful young lady but I am kind of worried about her, shes very naive and innocent, one night we were sitting outside me, my mom, my sister, and my niece comes out to join us while were talking about my nephews new found B.O. from football practice and then the conversation turns to my niece and how for a while her neck was "black" because she didn't wash right and can you believe what she says next? "But, once you go black you never go back" XD bahaha I could help but laugh she said it so...so innocent! she had no idea it had to do with sex! after my sister got after her she ran to her room poor girl, and that's what has me so worried, who knows what these little boys will talk her into, even little girls! I remember when I was in middle school my friends (girls) were trying to talk me into kissing this boy behind the bleachers, and in the end I did *sigh* but I also lost my virginity when I was 14 but of course I knew all sorts of things about sex by then heck I knew about sex since I was in elementary school, but I'm just worried that my niece doesn't know enough, like the fact that the first time it doesn't feel good at all, in fact it didn't start feeling right till a few times. Point is even though I lost it so young I really do think girls should wait till marriage not because the bible says so but because having sex is very emotional, and what is a young girl gonna do being in "love"  having sex and then it doesn't work out? In my case I wasn't in love I did it because I was curious, and honestly I didn't want any boy to hold the "I took your virginity" card over me so I told a boy down the street that I grew up with that I wasn't a virgin and that if he wanted to sort of be friends with benefits haha he was so excited and gosh I was so nervous! anywhoo Sorry to whoever reads my posts I havent blogged in a while :/ but thank you non the less :)


-Marybby<3