Call me an Idiot.

"The funny thing is, nobody really ever knows how much anybody else is hurting. We could be standing next to someone who is completely broken, and we wouldn’t even know."

                                                                                                                                   -Unknown

When is it finally enough? I need to be free. I need...........not to care about you anymore. Why can't I be one of those people who knows. Knows who she loves. Knows how to move on and forget. I want you gone like a dream. I woke up crying again...but this time it wasn't you I was crying over, it was me. I was crying over myself. For myself. Why can't I heal? Is it because I've already labeled myself as damaged goods? Is it because I lie to myself and everyone else when I say I don't hurt over you anymore? I try so hard to find someone new and beyond different from you. So why do I still feel like the chains are wrapped all around me? Isn't enough enough? I gave you my best. Dear heart please get better. I promise I wont let them hurt you anymore. They say to let my walls down but then how will I be protected. Who can be my safety net?

no one can be my safety net.

-Marybby<3